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01:27 pm: nada
Footprints
author: unknown
One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.
In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.
Sometimes there were two sets of footprints,
other times there was one only.
This bothered me because I noticed that during the low periods of my life,
when I was suffering from anguish,
sorrow or defeat,
I could see only one set of footprints,
so I said to the Lord,
"You promised me Lord,
that if I followed you,
you would walk with me always.
But I have noticed that during the most trying periods of my life
there has only been one set of footprints in the sand.
Why, when I needed you most, have you not been there for me?"
The Lord replied,
"The years when you have seen only one set of footprints,
my child, is when I carried you."

I love that poem..today I felt the presence of the Lord within me. I went to Heathers church and I could see that God was talking to me! I prayed for many people even ones that is hard to hate right now..God says forgive your enemies..We had to raise our hands if we had ever had kept on thinking about our past sin that God had already forgiven us..and I and of course a lot of other people did too..and Heather, I, and few of her friends went up to the alter and when the preacher touched me i started shaking I really truly could not control it. It was really my eyes they started twiching..I then started to cry and I have no clue why. But anyways last night Heather and I went on a romantic date lol..j/k...we danced and completly forgot about all the problems in the world..then this old old guy like came up to me and was like "you want to dance" so i thought sure since he was a rly old guy..then he got a little to close and then he told me he was drunk as S*** and he didnt give a d*** and asked me where I was from so I then pushed him away...Heathers parents were nice they were going to come over and help me but it was the end of the song when he did it. Then another guy came up and asked me if I wanted to dance and I was like no and then he asked Heather and she said no of course then he was like oh man..are ya'll sure...yeah that was not a fun night after the dance...then we went back to her house at sord of watched Napoleon Dynamite..but Heather started feeling sick to her stomach and so she couldnt fall asleep..I hope you get to feeling better! Then we went to eat Subway today after church and then her mom took me home..I had a fun time with her! She is just like me VERY VERY sensitive! My parents are out buying us a new washer and dryer..we need one bad too becuse they are like almost 26yrs old! They look it too!! haha..well anyways I hope everyone had a GREAT weekend! Well talk to everyone laters..I do not have aim right now b/c my comp. is screwed up so yeah talk to me on here or on my myspace.

<3 Brooke
<3ya Brian
<3ya my daighters hehe
<3 ya sista

10:52 am: Wohoo!
yesterday was muy fantastico!! 1st- I took a test and I think it was easy but I do not know what I made! 2nd- nothing really happened 3rd- haha I was trying to tell Jess to spit out her gum since Coach Young doesnt like gum..and Brandon Williams (i think) was like I swear I just herd you say cum..haha and I was pointing at my mouth and it looked like I was showing Jess that she had cum on her..and he was like okay say it again and I was like GUM! He was like I swear I just heard you say it again and finally Jess got what I was saying..haha..4th we did our project..I hope it worked..Matt is dead meat!! he broke part of our project but thanks to Chris he knew how to help us..5th- laughed a lot at lunch which hasnt happened in a while ..then took a vocab. quiz that I am not sure I passed..and then took a notes quiz that I know I at least passed on..then after school Brian and I helped Charlie and them move some stuff in their moving truck b/c they bought a cabin up in the mountains..before that we went to his house to eat lunch (Brians house) and his mommy is sick b/c she had surgery on her mouth..then after we helped Charlie I went back to Brians house and his brothers ex-g/f was there and she was soo nice! Then brians parents and I talked awhile then Brian came over to my house and we watched this older 70's movie called The Deep. Today is my brothers birthday the one that died and I wrote a story on him and so when my step-dad gets up I am going to go to Brandons grave (I hopefully get to drive us there). So yeah today is sad but fun..then tomorrow I am going DRESS SHOPPING WOHOO! I am going with the coolest girl in the school HEATHER!! hehe..then next weekend I am hopefully going to kells and she is going to cook...I think I am going to TRY and watch movies too!! Well talk to everyone laters!!
<3Brooke
<3 ya Brian
<3 ya my two lovely daughters hehe
<3 ya sista!

We camped out on our living floors
in our old sleepbags by a make-believe fire
in our tent made of covers
we talk for hours, my two brothers and me
keeping the fate, racing with destiny

Chorus:
they were angels in waiting,
waiting for wings to fly from this world
Away from their pain
treasuring time
'til time came to leave, leave 'em behind
sweet memories
angels in waiting
angels in waiting for wings

They always knew they would never grow old
Sometimes the body is weaker than the soul
In their darkest hour I made a promise
I will always keep
I will give them life
I'll let them live through me

Repeat ChorusX2

03:35 pm: Artist: Avril Lavigne
Album: Nobody's Home
Title: Nobody's Home


well I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
she felt it, every day
and I couldn't help her
I just watched her make the same mistakes again
whats wrong whats wrong now
too many too many problems
don't know where she belongs
where she belongs

she wants to go home
but nobodys home
thats where she lies broken inside
no place to go, no place to go
to dry her eyes broken inside

open your eyes
and look outside
find the reasons why
you've been rejected
and now you can't find what you've left behind
be strong be strong now
too many too many problems
dont' know where she belongs
where she belongs

she wants to go home
but nobodys home
thats where she lies broken inside
no place to go, no place to go
to dry her eyes broken inside

her feelings she hides
her dreams she can't find
she's losing her mind
she's falling behind
she can't find her place
she's losing her faith
she's falling from grace
she's all over the place

yeah (yeah)

chorus again

she's lost inside, lost inside (2 x's)
oh, oh, yeah

Yep so today was kind of nothing..talked about some things with some friends...1st- Found out I have a 87 in that class wohoo!! 2nd- read some things ohh and my new name is aivilo ynher..haha 3rd- the freaking student teacher wasnt there today WOHOO! 4th- thought I passed my test but i failed it by two points (i think I get nervous on taking tests and then I fail them) 5th- wrote notes today it was kinda boring in there! 6th- did classwork and everyone wanted to copy off me..which I dont know if that is a good idea but oh well...then Brian took me home..now I am here when I should be studying! oh well...not much more too say!...
<3Brooke
<ya Brian <ya my daughters <3ya sista heather (haha) thanks for the note it incourages me to think positive about myself..I hope I do the same thing for you

03:50 pm: nothing much happened today...1st- told amber what i told caitlin 2nd- showed my teacher some stories I have written 3rd- did work as usual 4th took a test (i think i did ok 5th- finished up this movie that I saw in health it was pretty cool and talked with heather 6th- Ms. McNeil has been cool lately (i think she was such a bitch b/c she was pregant). Then I went home only to continue school b/c my teachers dont care if you have other homework and other things to do at home...well thats about it...talk to you guys laters
<3 Brooke
<3ya brian
<ya my daughters <ya sista

08:10 pm: BITCHES hehe
Today was kinda boring..not much happened..oh wait kell got some new shoes and they are unique lol but cute! Failed my history test but oh well..i stuided but didnt rly care...oh and this bitch better f live my friend alone she needs to get a life big time!! I am planning to write a note to her.. Amber if you read this I saw her today and she was like omg! i look like a guy today but i dont care...and i started laughing (she didnt hear me) and I was like you look like a guy everyday lol...so yeah my day was kinda of being pissed off (at this girl i do not want to put her name on here b/c she doesnt know i know some things) but happy b/c today was brian and I's lil' anniversary 2yrs and 3mths oh YEAH BABY!! I LOVE YOU BABY!!! MUAH!!!!!!!These past two years have been the best days/years of my life!! I do not think I could of picked a better guy to date you respect me, love me , hold me the way I want to be held, and just do everything perfectly!! You have helped me out through a lot of shit this year and I do not know how you ever put up with me but you have and I hop you continue to do soo!!
I LOVE YOU!!
<3Brooke
<3ya Brian
<3ya my daughters
<3ya my sis heather!

11:34 am: none
Today I might be going to Brians if not I am studying I have two quizzes tomorrow..I am beginning to not like high school but I guess college is worse! Last night I went out to eat with some of my parents friends to this really nice restaraunt(sp?). The food was alright. I am ready for school tomorrow! I want to get done with this semester so that next year comes fast and wohoo I am outta high school and on with my life. I want to be a CSI agent but my step-dad told me that the smell of the dead bodies is horrific and the smell of them stays in your clothes. I dont know if I could deal with that. But yeah I hope everyone has enjoyed their 3-day weekend! You all can tell me all about it on here or at school! Well gonna go..<3 to all
<3you Brian
<3you daughters hehe
<3 ya heather like a sis!!
P.S.- Thanks heather for always being there for me t/o this crap! You're right she isnt worth one of my tears! I am going to start over this week as of now that person doesnt exist to me anymore and the fight never happened! Wohoo positivo life here I come!

09:40 am: life goes on..:)
This weekend was awesome..I sat around on Friday.. and then on Saturday I went to Brians house then we went to his friend melissas house then after that we went to see the Gladiators(and for those of you who dont know what they play it is hockey) by the way they suck but I have come to find that I like watching hockey! Then we went back to melissas house to watch Napoleon(sp?) Dynamite..I didnt rly get it but some parts were funny..then we went back to brians house and he took me home..today I am going driving because i get my license in I believe 27days. Today I was a little sick but am better now! Well thats all folks!
<3Brooke
<3Brian

11:52 am: Better Days
Today was much better!! First- exciting b/c no one stole Amber's seat today! 2nd- b/c I got to be in a class with my baby 3rd- b/c my two bestest buddies were in class with me!! 4th- just cuz the teacher is awesome and he is so forgetful and stuff oh and our whole table gossips about everything lol..it never leaves the room either lol...5th- was quiet not much going on in there...6th-boring b/c its spanish..yucky..then I came home and my daddy FINALLY sent me my christmas present..I got a shirt, pants, cute flower candles, dangling earrings, candles, and a cross to put in my room. I am soo happy! This weekend I am going to go to my babes house and melissa's house! I am going driving..I HAVE to get that down i get my license really soon!

02:37 pm: none
Today went a little better..I got a call from my dad that he was sending my christmas present and he was acting rly weird when he was talking to me..ahh man it scares me soo bad! But today was kind of blah nothing rly happened..Patsy finally got put back into Coach Spoto's class.YAY! I finally got up in front of the class and didnt rly care about what people thought..I also had someone helping me too since we got to have partners..Spanish was rly boring! Then I went to my baby's house WOHOO!! That was fun! then i came home and mad flan (a yummy mexican dessert!). Now i need to go and do my homework! Well talk to you guys later...<3 to everyone!!
<3Brooke
<3Brian<3
I dont care what people think anymore and I dont care what people say. I am not dumb and I know when people are lieing. This shit continues everyday and I am done with it go on your lil merry way and continue to tell all the lies you want about me. B/c you seem to be doing a great job of beating me down! If you want to go and fucking say I am beating you down go right ahead, I'm not stopping you! I know it isnt true and that is what matters and the one friend maybe two that you have taken away from me are obviously not my true friends..and I am not teaching heather anything oh and we dont talk about you that much b/c why would we it would be a worthless conv., yeah at the beginning we did but now it has become boring! and I dont know why the hell you would even think of me trying to break your friendship up when i should be wondering the why youre the one breaking me and everyone that means something to me up..and you know what would you think if someone had mentioned that something rly bad about their dad and then you go and put someone elses dad is in the hospital just so you can get the freaking attention no i dont want it b/c something is going wrong with my dad...b/c i dont know what will happen...and you know i dont know what goes on in your life and i dont care to know anymore..if something serious comes up then i will..but til then if you see something that is wrong with my journal...then keep it to yourself

07:06 pm: none
I had a bad day yesterday...I found out some bad news about my dad..dont rly want to say anything about it b/c i dont know..my brother is just speculating...and he keeps on freaking lieing to me and i hate that the most..that is MY biggest pet-peave!! I CANNOT stand it when pple lie to me! I also hate when they try to pull the worst part of your life and put it into theirs..that was one thing that rly got to me yesterday..this one person put in their journal that someone elses dad was in the hospital when today i read that other persons journal and it was about her sister going to the hospital..I cant believe someone would stoop that low...gurr...yeah then my step-brothers b-day is coming up and i am rly upset b/c I have rly needed him through a lot of shit that i am going through right now! Sorry guys i need to vent!! It might be awhile til i am done!! And what bothers me the most is I am NOT a liar..yeah of course i lie everyonce in awhile but NEVER EVER to my best friends...i think that is the worst thing you could do b/c they put their trust in you and if you ever want them back then it will be so unbelieveably hard to get them back in b./c you broke their trust!.. and i feel like every time i get in a fight it is ALL ME!! You know it isnt always all me! I hate for some pple to think that! oh and this someone needs to know that I dont talk about myself a lot and i am not an attention grabber! I was when I was rly close with jess and kell! I didnt think i was until i actually sat down one day and thought about what i had done and we all agree to the fact that we were all at fault in that argument. But I can honestly say that I NEVER lied in this situation and that i NEVER tried turning it on anyone but it all turned out to be that i treated this person like shit and that i cont. to spread rumors (even though i didnt) about them when i didnt! People should know that I dont like to her that this girl said this about my b/f it rly pisses me off! And i get very mad and tell the person off or let it out cooly(rarely happens). I especailly tell them when i think it is from my best friend and oh i go back now and think i didnt say shit about her..and even if i did i was freaking mad that my own best friend was saying that kind of shit!..i need some peoples opinion on the last part there...if your best friend said some things that you didnt like to her best friend (both of ours was anyways) and then she came to you and told you what she said would you get mad and go to that person and tell them what you thought? -Thanks for everyone that was paying attention..now it makes me feel like i am the attention grabber since i let all this out but oh well..thanks you guys whoever you may be....<3 To everyone

03:58 pm: no subject
hey everybody someone has been bothering me to get a xanga and here ya go I finally got a livejournal...So today was fun and tiring it was my friend Amber's 17th b-day! In Physics I got the teacher to sing her happy birthday it was great/ funny! Then in 5th today we didnt do anything he let us talk the whole period! Oh in history I got stuck in front of David Slappey (YUCK!) sorry kell and jess. I can't stand him..then my b/f was rly hyper today! Like he isnt everyday lol! Well I am going to go talk to you laters...
<3 to everyone
<3 Brian